I did a water fast. Yes, water only. The last one was 5 days. The time before that was 7 days, and the time before that was 10 days. Each time significantly spaced apart. Why did I choose this? There was one goal in mind -to quiet the inner environment.
See, life happening and experiencing is an inward process. It’s happening through us, not to us. Even when you touch something tangible, the sensation is felt within your own body. It’s both beautiful and empowering that it happens this way. The choice to moderate more of or less of what you’re perceiving externally is solely contained within your conscious choosing. But I digress.
Fasting, at least to me, is much like my ice bath experience in that it brings me directly to reality as it is. During the water fast, the second and third day are usually the most challenging for me because after the initial day of giving my digestive system a rest, I start to feel the withdrawals. Yes, there’s such a thing as food withdrawals. Isn’t that curious? Consuming food is a pattern the body has adjusted to for years. And anything you perform habitually becomes a way to train the body’s mind, where the body governs the decision making rather than you choosing from clear and purposeful thought. So what did it bring up for me? Through me?
Detoxing is not solely physical. It also extends to the mental, emotional and spiritual bodies. Observing myself is a daily practice, so the first thing that becomes heightened during fasting, are my thoughts and it’s fraternal twin -my emotions. Many of the thoughts I’ve suppressed comes charging to the surface, and seemingly every incident throughout the day becomes a possibility for irritation. It’s wonderful!
Most times I think of consuming very specific foods that pose as helpers, so as to keep the inevitable act of feeling my feelings at bay. After tussling with the thoughts and emotions, I arrive at day four, five or how ever many days, resolved to simply dance with whatever surfaces. I’d like to share with you some of what I’ve discovered with continued water fasting beginning with the most obvious for me:
•It’s clear there are times, I’m emotionally eating. Sugar is my drug of choice when I’m spiraling emotionally. I sometimes even eat when I’m not hungry rather than listening to the body.
•It’s clear I attempt to divert my attention from thoughts that have convinced me there are things wrong with me.
•The process of fasting becomes my teacher. It shows me what requires my full attention, when and how to apply it.
•I prioritize conserving energy. Non-essentials fall away.Willingly.
•After the initial two days, I feel access to more energy. I seem to require less sleep.
•Following at least the third day, stinky mouth, bloating, body soreness and tension, food cravings, dehydration, the presence of yeast, mucus, itchiness on the surface of my skin, mental and emotional diarrhea all either cease to be or are noticeably reduced.
•It’s the ultimate set up for realizing and/or noticing my crutches. ALL OF THEM!
For all these reasons and more, I periodically fast with water as a way to continue learning about the various and previously eclipsed layers of myself. The most profound clarity I’ve arrived at is learning that most illnesses or diseases are a direct result of chronic dehydration. Water is life. We look for it when we are searching for signs of life.